"Nyabagangal mazhai aagum; Nyabagangal kudai aagum
Nyabagangal thee moottum; Nyabagangal neer ootrum "
These famous lines from a Tamil movie song convey so concisely wat memories do to u...Memories are the rain and the umbrella, memories ignite a fire and quench it too!!
Sure as hell they do!
At times of loneliness, the only solacing thought is that of a great time u had with a dear one, yet if u did not have that memory, you would not suffer of loneliness or the pangs of separation.. wow wat an irony!!
Again there are some memories I would like to delete forever from my mind but they stay in the recycle bin and once in a while some arbit command restores them into my C;/ drive reminding of my stupidities, embarassment, rage and pain. It happened today...one casual statement took me 5 years behind and the Pandora's box was opened - Oh how I hate my memory... I wish I could forget! Well....a few minutes of anger and tears later life was back to normal...
Hopping over to some of the better flashbacks,
Today, I had gone to the temple here in Memphis. While returning back home, on the country road, sans the city lights, the stars were just beautiful and I spotted the great dipper constellation.That took me back to my high school days when I used to spend hours on the terrace avidly star gazing (No.not the kind u r thinking about, really star gazing). Then, I used to be capable of identifying several constellations and planets in the night sky and I even nursed serious dreams about studying Astrophysics!!! Now 10-12 years later, here I am thanking God, he dint lead me into complexities like that - cos with my pea-brain, I sure would have flunked !! During college, whenever the night was clear, on the walk back from the mess to the hostel, D was forced into identifying, the three celestial formations that I confidently knew... Are u wondering why she hasnt disowned me yet? well, mostly becos, she always got them wrong!
Hmmm, today seems so boring... but 5 years down the lane....this might be a beautiful memory!!!