Tuesday, March 05, 2013

Being remarkable...

My sister, who loves me a bit too much  - tagged me on this note on Facebook.  I assume she meant I was a remarkable woman - I am happy to be perceived this way - after all who does not want to be irresistible even if fictitiously :)

Stepping into another year of my life, I look back and I believe I have "tried" to be all the things that this quote says about being a wonderful woman - but rolling my sexuality, sensibility and sensitivity into a single personality is hard work - for they are all at some level contradictory to each other - its like being a colloidal solution of unmixable things -yet in some incredible way blended like water, protein and fat in milk. Then there is the world that sees a woman in single non-blended dimensions - the ones you sleep with (sexual) , the ones you work with (sensible) and the ones you live with (sensitive). Maybe 2 dimensional complexity is enough for the world to grapple with....but when you try to present a picture of reasonably sound intellect, expressed emotively in a feminine frame - then you are picked apart for the unrealistic person you aspire to be...every dimension is picked at for faults - for you cant be complete...Alas! Ideal engines and ideal people do not exist...especially in a world limited by imagination and the ordinary.....

I concede, I try everyday and most days the best I can do is 2 dimensional. Then there are those days when I am all 3 dimensions and I feel like a Goddess - remarkable and irresistible and I agree I feel like I make  the world a better place by spreading the empowerment I feel.... I will keep trying every day...As narcissistic as this post may sound, I am glad I try and I am blessed for those occasional days that I do succeed...

Thank you Sandhya Manian for thinking of me on such high terms and for making me think... :)


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Bing bolong batong!